离开部落格的这些年

曾经何时，我只需要区区的10分钟下笔成章。然而此刻， 对着区区26个字母键盘，却不知道该如何下手。 文章的数量，从当年每个星期的三篇下降直每一年的三篇。文字数量由每一篇的2000字下降至每一篇的 200字。 在股票市场里，我们可以把这情况归类为“熊市”，有降无增，直落谷底。不懂是我们在为自己的懒惰找借口，还是生活让我们长大了。

当年一起在部落格闯荡江湖，分享生活点点滴滴的博客发烧友门，也渐渐的封笔退出江湖。我想，网络再多姿多彩，也总得回到现实生活，处理许多现实的问题。 而这种种的现实，足以消耗我们大部分的生命，甚至于最基本的睡眠时间，也都被剥夺了。当我们终于有少许的空档可以打开部落格，除了游览别人的生活，偶而羡慕他人的多姿多彩外， 也不知道该写些什么。我总觉得，很多时候，很多的事情，如果没有及时下笔，过去了，就没写的必要了。过去的事，何必再提？

我离开部落格的这些年，九把刀红了。噢不！应该说透过他亲手酝酿和指导的电影《那些年》，九把刀更红了！而且，红的不只是他一个，我想这是很多人都预料不到的事情。 看着九把刀的毅力和梦想成真，到底唤醒了多少人的热血沸腾和沉睡久时的梦想？但，又有多少个部落客可以成为第二个如此成功的案例？他的成功并不是他的文笔比他人厉害，而是他对文字的执着和追随梦想的勇气。 曾经有一个长辈告诉我，有梦想固然是很幸福的事情，前提是我们必须得喂饱自己的肚子，养活爱你的家人，安定了自己的基本生活，再谈兴趣和梦想。 姜是老的辣，我一向很受教，只要有道理。所以，我决定把我一团糟的生活翻新。花了快一年多的时间在一个全新的环境碰碰撞撞，虽然不至于撞得头破血流，但轻度受伤。多次地被他人拒绝而一再尝试，让我坚强。原来，面对并没有想象中的困难。目前， 工作算是稳定，虽然有时很忙，有时很累，但生活也还过得去。因此，我为自己买了台新笔记本，希望可以继续，不断地写下去。文字，依然是我所爱的。

我离开部落格的这些年，九把刀更红了，我的工作稳定了，老板起薪了，他求婚了。虽然，过程很无厘头，男主公很羞涩和笨拙，但是，有鲜花和精心安排的蛋糕，勉勉强强，我给他过关了。细节我就不提了，就像我说的，过去了，何必再提？ 未来，才是要点。接下来这一年，我为自己设定了一些目标， 我希望2012年结束前，我的存款可以超越 5位数；我希望顺利的拿到我的半居留权；我希望可以跟他顺利地购得我们的第一间房子；我希望可以给自己一个不错的假期来慰劳自己的努力。希望的同时，努力在实践当中。为无产业阶级的我，加油！

張信哲.幸福覺哲20世界巡迴演唱

還記得小時候，總是喜歡隨著表姐們一起聆聽“情歌王子”張信哲的專輯，嘴裡也不停地哼著他每一首動人的旋律。沒想到十多年後的今天，我跟他，就只有30公分的距離。張信哲.幸福覺哲20世界巡迴演唱會終於在昨天晚上8點於雲頂正式引爆。五千四百張票在很早以前就被搶光光，全場爆滿。讓阿哲興奮地說：“在酒店看到海報都寫‘Sold Out’（售罄）,很驕傲很開心！”




張信哲現場演繹許多經典名曲，例如2000年的《信仰》，1992年的《難以抗拒你容顏》，2006年的《做你的男人》，1995年的《不要對他說》，《寬容》以及《過火》，1997年的《直覺》，2004年的《白月光》，1997年的《用情》，1996年的《太想愛你》，2008年的《逃生》，1993年的《愛如潮水》等等。大熒幕上都準備了歌詞，張信哲號召大家把現場當“KTV包房”，還笑說：“這不是讓你們看我有沒有唱錯，是要大家跟我一起大合唱……”每一首都是我們所熟悉的，因此現場的互動非常的棒！連我們整班同事都一起歡呼一起高喊。工作於娛樂，我想，我們最懂得如何忙裡偷閒。



最後，張信哲的經紀人好好哦～還問我們要不要拍張照留念？那還要說！當然要啊！情歌王子耶～最高興的是，還有他的簽名精選。這張演唱會真的辦得非常成功！真期望我12月份那兩場阿密特演唱會也能辦得如此成功！

早晨的書桌

很意外地在早晨的書桌上，
發現我的 Room mate 送上的關心。
這陣子的複雜心情終於舒解了一大半。

As we sail through life,
don't avoid storms and rough waters.
Just let it pass.
Just sail.

Always remember,
calm sea never make skillful sailors.

When you make mistake,
don't look back at it long.
take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward.
mistakes are lessons of wisdom.
The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power.
Today is a new day!
many will seize this day
many will live it to the fullest
why not you?

邀請函

我急需要一件禮服。
一件簡單高雅，不過於隆重或隨便的禮服。

自爽的一章- My Employee Tag

My 1st employee tag and cop stamp.

這是我畢業後的第一份工作，
需要我認真的對待。
名勝世界
現在，我是它的一員。

簡單的滿足感

最幸福的事，
莫過於放工後來個熱水澡，
然後一個人靜靜地聽聽音樂，
寫寫部落格，
吃塊蛋糕。

溫拿五虎 aka Wynners 演唱會

溫拿五虎發紅發紫的時候，我想我還等著投胎。對他們的歌也不太熟悉，畢竟他們並不屬於80年代。但是，對於他們的電影我一點也不感到陌生。透過電視熒幕見到的他們和真實的感覺很不同， 就好像聽現場演唱總會比聽收音機來得棒！他們都是五十幾的成熟男人了，但是他們的肺活量真的不是蓋的。尤其是我最喜歡的鐘鎮濤（阿B）, 他是五個里頭最高大健壯的一位，年過五十，但依然容光煥發，皮膚光滑，臉帶紅潤。他是天生的藝人。很多中年女歌迷女影迷都很瘋狂的往鐘鎮濤或者譚詠麟身邊擠去，不捨得離開。這也難怪，溫拿曾是她們的青春夢。身為演唱會負責人之一，有幸可以沾上點光合影一張。我想，很多溫拿的女影迷都想把我幹掉。很多朋友以為我的工作，可以常接觸大明星，跟他們說話，握手甚至合照簽名等等。這是多大的誤會啊～其實，我也很想多拍幾張獨照。但是，因為身份的關係，我們必須保護公司形象，沒有對方的邀請或者上司的認可，我們是不可以私底下跟他們有任何接觸的。更別說是聊上幾句。所以，這張照片只是個巧合，慶幸！

當晚溫拿演唱了四十幾首歌，其中一些著名的英文曲有《Kung Fu Fighting》,《Sha La La》,《YMCA》,《Listen To The Music》,《Hey Jude》,《I Go To Pieces》《Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow》等等。至於廣東/華語歌一開場就有《L.O.V.E》,《小城故事》，《追趕跑跳碰》，《朋友》，《愛在深秋》，《愛情陷阱》等等。其中有一首我特別想和大家分享的，尤其是歌詞裡的含義。希望大家以心凝聽。我想，它足以說出許多人的心聲。

Ps: 突然多了一張他們的精選集，謝謝個單位。

員工宿舍

在雲頂生活已經第三天了。老實說，一切還過得去。雖然沒辦法住進新的宿舍，但是很慶幸，房間的設備還算不錯的，至少乾淨，兩個人來說空間也夠大，床與床之間還隔了兩張新桌子，給了對方少少的私人空間。我選了角落的床，把靠窗的位置讓給了我的室友。雖然躲在角落，但每一個晚上我依然冷得像蝦米一樣。

窗外一片迷濛。。。。。

雲頂給予Executive level & Above 的員工很好的福利。除了每個月1200的食物津貼，還有很多消遣設備。比如，室內熱水泳池， 圖書館，Executive Club 裡面的Lounge,Karaoke, gym等等。。都是全免的，所以日子不算難過。只是普通Staff 就比較可憐點，工錢不多，還要自己消費食物。雲頂的消費遠遠比吉隆坡還來得貴。

昨晚第一次到演唱會現場幫忙，站在THEME PARK 那兩個小時快凍死，不過朱咪咪和李隆基的表演真的很有趣。雖然不年輕了，但氣夠足，心境年輕。接下來還有溫拿演唱會。希望可以參與盛舉！

My Floating Mind

So long never update on my blog about my life. Just no idea what to write about. I still floating in my life, a lot of unsure, a lot of questions, a lot of insecure feelings in my heart. I doesn't like the feeling of floating in the sky, I prefer to stand on the land. I feel safe to feel the land with my legs. I wish can find my place in somewhere. A place that welcome my attend, believe on my ability, and provide me the space to explore more. Somehow, I still not firm with my future. Thanks to my ex-supervisor's Michelle listened to my problems and gave some advices. I really felt great to receive her msg and told me that I'm one of strong girl, she have faith with me & believe I can make it if I want to. Her compliment really means to me, after I invested a lot of my times and efforts last time just to overcome my obstacles during my internship in an multinational ads agency. Michelle was always strict to me and paid high expectation to me not just as a trainee. And I always compare myself with her and kept pushing myself which made me even stressful to myself that time. But I really felt proud to myself in a minute & worth for it. I learn more within 3 and a half months of my internship compare to 3yrs of my university life. What I had learn is not about theory but attitude and the way to deal with people and my job. You will never know how stressful to survive in a multinational ads agency. Everyone just as a robot with a durable battery. Office almost become their 2nd home. Stress is their spirit sustenance. You are never know how many sleepless nights and efforts they are putting just for few pages of advertisement, few seconds of TV and radio Commercial that read by readers within a second. I always admire them!

Anyway, this is just part of story about my internship life but what for next? Even though already decided to start my job hunting in my own country but somehow a voice in my mind keep telling me that "You should try more before really gave up. maybe u shall slow down a bit of your position and start from zero in another country. nothing is easy right? In there, you have no need to face the jam everyday and transport problem. And you can maintain your current relationship and learn be independent. In addiction, you always feel safe at there with their security. No need to worry someone rob your handbag, no need to worry someone following you in dark... " But somehow, I really a bit tired to keep traveling between 2 countries and face with the same results. Especially when all the situation is not advance to me but for their own citizen. And I dun want to rely another one in financial for my life expenses everyday. Life is reality, don't you? And I will feel disappointed to myself when heard someone already got the offer with AE post in Malaysia. Even them also can made it, why I couldn't? "Sure you can my dear, you just need back to your own county, then you can!" my minds telling again... for your failure, you can find thousand of excuses, but for success only one, work harder! I get myself too much of excuses for my failure. why not just admit, I just not good enough! become ostrich again..back to my safe place. Coward!

Yes, my mind is floating like this way! I have to make up one mind! at least.... but how?? Messy now in my mind... can't sleep well... keep thinking... like hell!

1st step always Influence on your future

15mins ago, I was just sent another resume attached with 5 of my portfolio to apply for graphic designer position. And they replied me and asked "Sylvene, are you interested in account servicing executive position?" I should admit that this is not the 1st time I faced with this situation. When applied for Position A, they offered me position B, when I applied C, they offered me with position D. Don't be misunderstood! I'm complaint with the positions they were offered. And I'm not surprise at all with this situation and I can really understand why. Just because my employment history were all based on position B & D, not A & C. Account servicing executive(clients dealing) & business development (sales) is what i did before, not graphic design or copywriter even editor. But everything is come from Zero, you will never know how far you can go without try on new areas or position. No surprise, most of companies not prefer with fresh graduated without experiences in particular areas. Since this is a tough & troublesome task to teach and guide. why not just make life easier and employ someone already comes with experiences?

Thus, I really believe for what my uni adviser told us last time. She advised us that don't treat your internship or even your 1st job as a temporary job so that can simply taken it before get your ideal job. Most of time, your 1st step always influence your future road. I didn't thought much last time when made decision on the area that I wanna focus. Because I not so sure what I really want even now. Thus, I just taken for what people given to me on the spot. I chosen as business development executive because the opportunity already in front of me last time without fight(my best friend is manager inside), meanwhile its can help me to earn more to pay my study bills. and of course you need to work harder to close the sales each month. Then, after that I work as account servicing because my internship company they don't have any graphic design position for short term. So.. i just take it since it's just for 4 months. Even though I really wish to learn on something new in design that time. then, I also worked before in OCBC HQ as HR assistant during my semester break because one of my friend's working in recruitment agency and she need someone who are FREE to fill up her client's position... etc. of course all my employment history were not related to design! Afterward, my way is apparently being decided.

However, for a fresh graduate as me, everything is something new and have to learn from basic. no matter is graphic position or client dealing. once I taken, I will try best to make it done. actually I not really mind with the position as long as still related to my course. work for agency or corporate for marketing. An advice to my Junior who still can't figure out with what they want OR already know what they really want. Please think of it properly before make any decision. It's your future!

收获。愿望

~今天的收获~

新年新希望，
今年的第一个愿望，
希望，
顺利地找到一份好工作！
众人所望的！

显灵

今天是我公公和婆婆的忌日，很多年都不曾去上香给他老人家了，今天难得大家都得空，一个失业当中，很明显是在说我自己。而另一个，我弟等待开课中，所以我们俩七点多早晨就起床了，陪爸妈去仪山探望他老人家。要知道，我们都是夜猫子，要我们晚点睡或不睡还可以，但早睡早起，还是免了吧！

到仪山第一件事，当然是乖乖的敬敬孝道，上把香给他老人家，再说上几句悄悄话了。双手握着三支香，双眼满是怀念和诚意的在心里默念：

“我亲爱的公公婆婆，你们的乖孙女来为你们上香了。好久不见了。相信你们应该过得还不错。所谓“无事不登山宝殿”，我想你们应该猜到我想求什么的对吧？没错！就是你们的孙女还蛮争气的，大学毕业了，需要一份好工作！所以，保佑保佑。。给我一份好工作。要好的ｈｏｒ～谢过谢过～”

如果我是他们，听到这一段，心里应该会想：“这个si zha boh(福建音),　三百年不曾来上香，一来就跟我讨工作！ 来看我还有条件！”　呵呵呵～

然后，六点左右，我那头狮子打来说“你有收到我的信息吗？回电给那个号码。我刚接到他们的电话，他们要你明天就去应征。我知道你没办法赶下来，你打过去跟他们谈谈。。。”

虽然现在八字还没一撇，但是。。。。。。。。。。

我的阿公阿婆。。。
你们。。。。不会酱显灵吧？？？？？

早知道，求多两三个。。比如　“钱从天而降把我砸死～”
失误失误～

Job Searching

Before I start on my main topic today, let me share with you guys some of the dialogues between my mother & I.

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Few years ago
Mother: Are you going to auntie's house in this coming holiday?
Me: No. Auntie's staying at Teluk Intan. It's a bit far from KL. I am afraid of long-distance with public transport.

Currently
Me: Dad, Can you help me to buy a bus ticket to singapore for this coming 10th Jan?
Mother: Ohhh~ Go Auntie's there is far but singapore is not??? I just realised Singapore is nearer than Teluk Intan from KL. Since when you are no more afraid of long-distance?
Me: .........................................................................

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Few Months ago
My auntie's: You shall try in singapore after graduated. Singapore is safety compare to KL and can earn more... blar blar blar~
Me: eh~ I Don't like singapore. Singaporeans is very ego, food is sucks, lifestyle is very boring and too systematic & not as fun as KL..blar blar blar~

Currently
Me: Mummy and daddy, I just sent my resume to few of Singapore based companies.
Parents: .................................................................

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Yes, That's what had happened in my life currently. Don't laugh! I know I'm very contradict. The only reason that I able to provide is... "Love is Blind"... or "This is so called The Power of Love"......(most is because of Singapore currency.)

For this reason, I trying hard currently to search on jobs and sent over my resume. Actually I had though a lot in mind before to make the decision. A bit dilemma as I was facing with this situation. Asking myself "should I start my career in Singapore or just get back to my comfort zone in KL." I worrying couldn't adapt in new environment, a place that I unfamiliar at the meanwhile far away from my family. I lack of confident about my own capability and I worrying I couldn't handle well in my jobs. Especially with my language obstacles now. How could I fight with those Singaporeans? There's a lot of questions in my mind & desperate for an answers. Confident is needed, braveness is needed & encouragement is needed too.

However, I did tried to push my self to move on. Asked myself to take every little obstacles as another challenges in life. A way to learn and be stronger. Just try it out and give a chance to myself to explore further in life. There's some position I had applied within this two days such as marketing coordinator, marketing assistant, marketing executive, business development executive, marketing planner, Marketing Specialist, Advertising & promotions executive. The marketing positions that I had applied are not exactly based on sales, most is about strategy and brand management that related to advertising. (I keep asking myself don't scare by the job titles.) By the way, I wish I able to get the feedback for interview so that I could contribute in my family, share the burden for my daddy. Otherwise, I need to find another job in KL again..which is underpaid T.T Good luck to myself!